Sunday, April 11, 2010

Just me.

People often times ask, say, or mention that they think that I am too negative. And I would have to agree, sometimes.
In a world filled with murder, and children who don't have food, and war, and sickness, and death, and so on where do you find the balance between feeling the negative, doing what you can to help, and being grateful for what you have? Everyday I find myself struggling with that. Most days I am wonderful and happy and grateful for everything that I have, and couldn't ask for more. Some days I find myself so consumed with trying to find something I can do to make a difference in the world, or make a difference in someones life. And yes, every once in a while I find myself feeling sorry for myself wishing that I had more money, or more material things, and so on.
I've just now come to the conclusion that that is the balance. You need to strive to make a difference where you can, be grateful for all that you have, and yes, sometimes, it is even okay to feel sorry for yourself, so long as you don't let that be the majority of what you think about.
I have a wonderful family, a great and supportive husband, and BEAUTIFUL children. I am truly blessed even though sometimes I struggle to see that. It is so easy to be negative in today's world, with all the bad things that happen or that can happen, and all the sad things that you see everyday. Life is a beautiful, ugly, happy, sad, wonderful journey. You just have to take it one day at a time and do everything you can to make every second of everyday count.
I am grateful for EVERYTHING in my life, all the good, bad, sad, and happy. Everything that you go through makes you a stronger person.

I love everyone in my life, whatever role you may play. People are wonderful, amazing creatures. And as I go through life trying to figure everything out, I hope that people can be as understanding to me as I would be to them.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are such a great person with so much insite, i don't know who would call you negative. Everyone has their negative days or sometimes months. I am slowly coming out of my rut of feeling sad and negative of a month why i had no reason. Sometimes you just have those times, and as long as you can look around and realize it than its ok. No one can be happy all the time. there i defiantly a happy medium. I love you kacie

Julie said...

We definitely all have our negative moments. If someone doesn't I would definitely say something is out of balance with them. We need it all, the good, bad, sad, positive, etc.. to have balance. It's not bad to have feelings but it isn't good to be consumed with the negative. I have always said that "I choose" I choose everything, everything that happens, everything that I feel, etc.. It's true! You can create anything in this world. But you can't with too much negativity, It's all about being positive! And.. YOU have to take care of yourself, YOU have to worry about YOU and make sure that YOU are good and balanced in every area and life in general is going to be SOOO much better!!! Why? Because you deserve to be as happy as you let yourself be! Thanks for posting!!!!!